|"I want to write books that unlock the traffic jam in everybody's head." -John Updike|
A. Nin said that "the role of a writer is not to say what we all can say, but what we are unable to say," and that turns out to be a really good way of describing why I write. I write because I love deep truths in stories. I write about the things that I am and the things I want to be. I write about emotions, about beauty and life and love and truth. I write about redemption and change. I write about people who are real and love and laugh and live and die and do things. I write to get my heart out, to express things, events, emotions that we all know because we've felt them in our heart and experienced them in our lives.
I am a lover at heart...
I am in love with life, with all it's beauty and sorrow. In love with strength and silence. In love with heart and courage and struggle. And that translates into my writing. Writing rips your heart out. Life hurts...the darkness of this world tears at me and it hurts. But I write because I believe that there is more than just darkness. I write because I have hope-- because darkness does not discount the light.
I am a believer, a fighter, a dreamer.
Writing forces me to look in the face of fear and doubt and pain and terrorizing emotions. When I write, I open my heart. When I write, I fight through the complex emotions of life. I see beauty. I also see sorrow. I feel unspeakable joy and am crushed by pain. I tremble and weep in the incredible darkness of a long night...but then there are the stars.
I am me.
I have a God who holds my hand and tells me not to fear. Because this darkness, this pain, this night...it will not last forever. And I'm going to enjoy the night while it's here, looking up at the stars, knowing that behind all the confusion and the chaos there IS truth. There IS beauty. There IS hope.